One of the things about having children is the feeling they give you that they know all about you. It’s like they’ve come from inside you and had a good look round while they were there. My son Ian gives me this feeling. I often catch him staring at me when my back is turned, like he’s reading…
After Caravaggio’s Sacrifice of Isaac
Rachel Cusk
‘I dream about Ian, not the same dream, different dreams, but they're all sort of similar. Like, we're getting on a train, me and him, and I put him on with all our bags and then I get off because I want to buy a newspaper or something and next thing I know the train's pulling away with me still on the platform and Ian looking at me through the window.’
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Rachel Cusk
Rachel Cusk was one of Granta’s Best of Young British Novelists in 2003. She is the author of eight novels and three non-fiction works, including Outline, Aftermath: On Marriage and Separation and The Country Life.
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